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they say iam talented in many ways.....
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dexterity is no forte of mine....
nor is public relations.....
iam tired of the cynicism ...
the sentences laced with sarcasm....
the *love you's* an' *miss you's* have lost their frequency....
they savour my failure and suck the last drop of hope from my body...
limp an' dishelved......i think they'r right when i'm told i don't belong here no more
all i wanna do is walk barefoot n' have people smile at me on the way!

~gAiJiN~

my life n' it's twist......memories wrapped in bubble wrap...stored in a shoe box..n' then locked THEM away!!!!
that is how paranoid i WAS about losing them...an' as the calendar changed pages..i realised i'd started living in that very same box!
there was a musky warm smell that smelt so familiar...the cotton shirt felt so confortable in my hands....the damn felt so damn good!'
my hair played with the evening breez as you lost yourself in me...the molten moments demanded a cast..an' that's what you provided me with!!
the pieces of the puzzle jus fit together....
.insane as it may sound.....
the past became my present.....an' i din't wanna live anywhere else...till i realised..i had no choice!

it was the time between dawn an' dusk...the hour when the world is at it's darkest....
everything sinister beakoned.....an' i dared to tip toe outside
unlocking the box n' airing my memories......i emerged out of bubble wrap..i felt like a gai-jin(firangee in japanese)
the jig saw's just a jumble now...n' the pieces don't fit as well as they used to....
this was my past..present...an' i prayed every night that my future would be a very similar picture.....
the past became my present.....
but you din't tug on my heart as hard as you used to....an' i let myself out of the window jus to see if i would fall into the puddle an' gt myself all muddy......
i faced my quintessential destiny......
did you hear me scream....my loud shout...???
....an' i don't think i wanna go live in the shoe box once more