disclaimer:-profound..i know.;)

i'v been blogging a lot lately....
but it's not coz iam thinking more or coz i have a lot more to say.it's the same old thought process..jus that iam in the process of disconnectin with the world...n' re-connecting with myself.
iam on the phone a lot less....n' as they say spending quality time with myself.spending time with nanna n' papa...n' tryin to gain brownie points for the summer.(n' also fr the aftrlife)
exam tension is absent...but that's nothing new.
i'v become a lot smarter..or so iam being told...
smarter ...wiser.....intellectual...it's all relative..i guess.
it's only the experience that counts.
n' with every passing day iam adding up to my meager measure of it.

yesterday...once more it became clear to me...that in the end....you're by yourself.
not that i ws rendered a heart breaking blow...or stabbed in the back by my kin...
a tiny incident ws enough to bring the point home...yet again!
the promises of friendship fade away n' forever ends sooner than you expectd.
my best friends been tryin to drill this fact in my head for the longest time....also goin to the extent of cutting all ties with me for 4 months....only so tht i'd to handle losss.he did a good job i thnk....coz iam definately stonger than yesterday.
n' strenght is all that we need to make every situation a lil more bearable....n' life a lot more peaceful...im not referring to happiness here...coz i for one know that the persuit of happiness is the most difficult.
not many would agree....but pain ..hurt...loss...despair....anger n' also our joy...it's all in the head....
our happiness lies in our own hands......n' strength only comes from experience an' responsibility.
so much is happening all around...every minute i'm bombarded with so much knowledge..news n' incidents....experiences..word of wisdom...n' lessons learnt from life.
i sit on my bed n' iam transported to diffrent surroundings in a matter of seconds...
dissapointments...triumphs....i experience them all with all those i love.
n' last night i wished i ws that japanese guy frm heroes*....
i want to time travel n' meet myself 5 years from now....all tht i seem to be learning n' claim to have learnt....is it all in my head...??