~youwonder~

we'r all a lil hurt..
just a lil broken...
all of us...as fcked as the nxt..
the dark is comforting and we retire into our past...
looking for somethng...anythng to hold on to..so we don't slip away.
we play a character....all the time..hiding the hurt...covering the pain in a shroud...being brave n' happy..just the way we'r meant to be...supposed to be i.e..jus doin it a lil bettr this time
there always music playin n' its defining our lives....
a song fr the day...a song for every moment.....
but wht when you want it to be alll to be silent....coz it's not music anymore....jst white noise...irritating...burning...omnipresent.
i look into your eyes...asking you to come on out.....
the smile tht you just passd ws a in its brutal reality a plea....
i wait to tear the walls down...
i understand but my hands feel tied....a straighjacket i cnt get out of...i am no Houdini(sp?)
the edges are gtin edgier
the surface jus a lil rough...
does the phoenix always rise from its ashes.....or is a version of the santa story??
At the brink of extension.. you wonder why i hurt myself...you wonder why i love pain so mch???
it takes the focus frm life...love..thngs in general...
n' fr tht minute all my senses are diverted to myself....i dnt care about you nemore....jus like it' ws always meant to be.